Like the sun,
I want to bask in your warmth.
Like the moon,
I’m awed by your beauty.
Like the stars,
I beseech you to ease
the weight of loneliness
that I’ve carried for far too long.
Pulled into your orbit,
it terrifies me how effortlessly
I’m drawn to you.
Every time I pull away, I realize
I’m helpless before you.
The walls surrounding my heart
are useless against you.
Simply, I ache for you —
Still, I refuse to surrender.
To surrender is to–
To surrender is to–
I cannot put into words what I fear–
the risk is too high and the outcome uncertain
The loneliness I feel is dreadfully familiar,
a tattered cape I don, wearing as I brace myself for the
bitter winter that are my longest days.
What’s the use for praying for spring, when I prefer to shower myself in rain?
Foolishly praying for aid, while I turn it away,
I know I’ve set this lonely course,
Still i know I would prefer it because I need to always have my way.
Mecca-Amirah Jackson 