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I wish I could be more

April 20, 2022April 22, 2022by Mecca_AmirahLeave a Comment

I wish I could unlock your every secret and mold them to your desires. I wish I was never born to this body— tethered to this stubborn flame, waiting for a stray gust of wind to extinguish me. I wish I was enough to appease the temperance of your gaze. Throaty mornings gazing at the [...]

inflorescence

But I didn’t listen

April 3, 2022March 26, 2022by Mecca_AmirahLeave a Comment

But I didn’t listen love me enough to stay; love me enough to leave. you told me it was silly to dream outside the four walls of your heart. you told me to clip my wings. you lied and said the world won’t accept a girl who follows her passions and strays from reality and [...]

inflorescence

Dreaming of You

March 26, 2022March 7, 2022by Mecca_AmirahLeave a Comment

Dreaming of You i trip,i stutter, whenever you turn your head and smile.i watchthe waythe light touches your cheek.i blush and blameit on the heat.i knowyou are notfor me—i am young, foolish, and sometimes weak. you rise like a phoenix, astounding those around you. the anticipation has me sick. nausea strikes me like lightening.the growling [...]

Poetry

I’m not your North Star

March 17, 2022March 19, 2022by Mecca_AmirahLeave a Comment

There’s this expectation of me that I can’t seem to shake. I know I can’t control the narratives others perceive of me but it’s the me that they prefer that makes me want to scream. The happy one. The smiley one. If I’m not happy - then something has to be wrong. Are we not [...]

Daydreamer

Hubris

March 15, 2022March 16, 2022by Mecca_Amirah2 Comments

When I was first writing Daydreamer, I was not aware that I was an avoidant. My attachment style was not known to me but subconsciously, I knew something was off. When looking back at my old writing, it amazes me how aware I was despite not having the education to describe I was feeling. Being [...]