<self-destructive behavior: outward versus inward>
i suppose, there are two types of self-destructive people: those who implode and those you explode.
those who implode, are the type who silently fight a battle within themselves.
they bottle up their emotions, put masks up to assure others that they are okay,
and in more extreme cases, self-harm. they bare the weight of their pain and sorrow alone,vigilantly believing they are saving others from their grudge.
they are destructive to their own selves. they tears themselves apart emotionally and sometimes physically. but when they do implode, they do it privately. every effort is designed to save their loved ones from “dealing” with their problems. but despite their efforts, they do in fact hurt those around them. they develop behavioral characteristic that are unstable and lean towards introvertedness.
those who explode, are dangerous to those around them and more importantly, themselves. yes, they act recklessly. yes, they shove down their conscious because the truth is harder to bare and lies are easier to swallow. they directly hurt their loved ones. But such reckless behavior does in fact, hurt themselves too. they push their conscience down so efficiently, they sometimes forget who they ever were.
so pick your poison: the lonely, self-sacrificing road or the reckless, self-loathing roller coaster.