stuck in the past

i think you are still stuck in the past; trapped in an endless sleep cycle of should have’s and maybe’s. it’s a treacherous thing, to fall asleep lonely; waking up facing the left side and your heart grumbling as if it’s hungry. but as of lately, instead of facing reality, you close your eyes and […]

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unrequited

I was looking over some older poems and it is crazy how a writer’s voice can change. I noticed a trend of my writing from last year. It was so dense with raw, angry emotions. A whirlwind of desire, confusion, and betrayal. In those moments, I felt like I was helpless to these emotions I […]

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pitiful

the possibilities should have been endless; a treasure trove bursting with winking jewels, you could have sipped at my glee, nourished on my love, you would have been fat and fleshy. now you are starving. dying. because you misplaced me.

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the truth

you never wanted the truth, did you? i read you like a book; loose spine and worn pages, you were easy to decipher. you would rather settle in a cesspit of lies, coddle yourself on your own demise, but i won’t let you, i won’t allow you to do anything but rise ✨

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puppet

so small, you reduced me to. never petite in my waist, thighs, or the fire burning in my eyes, did you feel big, because you reduced me until i was weak? @amateur__poet ✨

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self-destructive

  <self-destructive behavior: outward versus inward> i suppose, there are two types of self-destructive people:  those who implode and those you explode. those who implode, are the type who silently fight a battle within themselves. they bottle up their emotions, put masks up to assure others that they are okay, and in more extreme cases, […]

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conversations with him: 0.02

  you were never mine 
and that is fine. but 
before the stars fade 
and the dawn wakes the 
sky, am I not allowed to 
think of you, wrapped in my 
legs, your arms around my waist…. @amateur__poet

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it hurts…

it hurts to hurt me, it hurts to hurt you, it hurts to watch you as I hurt me, it hurts to watch you realize why I hurt, why I hurt me, why it hurts so much that I want to scream….   @amateur_poet

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goodbye

<goodbye> it pains me to think this, write this, but i have decided to part with you. leave you behind in my vivid fantasies because as the days stretch long and inviting, nights sleepless with longing, you are devastating me. it’s not your fault, of course. you never knew the consequences of your smile but […]

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