something so…

something so…

there is just something so lovely about watching the snow fall and wishing you were sharing it with me. transcendent. magical. i can almost imagine you laughing, tickling, smiling with me. cuddling close, clothes off because it’s always warm when you are with me. hushed moans and damp hands because mom is home. there is [...]

inflorescence

inflorescence

It is finally done! I guess I can't go back!   I have been on and off this blog and my instagram account working on this project. inflorescence is entirely a catharsis for me–getting out all these emotions, memories, pains, and delights out and putting it to paper. They always say, if you say a [...]

how much?

how much?

why, when you suffer, 
do you think you are alone? 
that we can not see that 
you are in agony? it’s the eyes 
that draw me in; misery stains 
your eyes black. your teeth 
are soft, your gums are 
runny and rotting red. 
you are decaying before 
me yet you spritz on 
perfume. the smell [...]

obsolete

obsolete

how did i find the 
strength to be used 
by you? wounded 
by a cycle that
 refuses to break,
i gave you a chance, 
no wait, three. three chances 
to prove that you were 
worthy of me. liar. 
you are now obsolete. 
what’s more tragic, that 
i forgave you or i 
expected you to reach 
up [...]

fealty

fealty

  to earn my love 
is to walk with caution; 
one false move and 
ill spiral. a diamond
 whose insides are like
 glass, im both hard 
and soft. venture, i 
am willing, discover why
 i cry when i’m the most 
happy. to love me is to
 earn an eternal sunrays,
to haunt me, is to earn 
my [...]