maybe if i

maybe if i

maybe if i lived in a city where leaves never expire and the waters tremble and sigh, maybe i would always find solstice knowing that every day will be the same. paradise should sound appealing but isn’t strife what births my creative might? would i be able to write so hauntingly, so real, so open [...]

i just

i just

i’ve stopped dreaming about/ looking out for you in the crowd. the clouds; i don’t count the stars between us anymore; i just count, i just dream, i just aspire to become greater things without being entangled. you were a distraction-unhealthy and throbbing like a poison; ive found other passions, other men who know how [...]

obsolete

obsolete

how did i find the 
strength to be used 
by you? wounded 
by a cycle that
 refuses to break,
i gave you a chance, 
no wait, three. three chances 
to prove that you were 
worthy of me. liar. 
you are now obsolete. 
what’s more tragic, that 
i forgave you or i 
expected you to reach 
up [...]

you never forgave me

you never forgave me

it’s a pity that you
 never forgave me;
i threw you off, in 
the beginning. a lovely 
girl who shines even when 
it rains. you never met 
a girl who could unearth
 you, strip common sense 
from underneath your feet 
with only with her gaze. you 
loathed me, were jealous of me even.
 you never knew [...]

me without you

me without you

there is no me without you;
 my dreams have always been
 about you; anointed, i am 
dizzy, i fall asleep with a smile 
on my face. reluctant, i wake up
 angry because i was ripped 
away from you; your embrace 
is all i need. tangible quandaries 
disappear and words like i 
love remain corporeal. you [...]