how Long?

November 22, 2020.Reading time 6 minutes.

How Long? – Mecca-Amirah Jackson How many times will I curl up and try to disappear? How many more nights of begging for answers? Loneliness ripping through me like riptides; im clinging on for dear life. Haven’t thought of ending it in a while but standing before the truth, alone, God it makes me question […]

resentment(giving too much of myself away)

September 5, 2020.Reading time 1 minute.

resentment(giving too much of myself away) sept 4/2020 why is it that i grow resentful at the sound of the clock? i damn the hands of time but can’t catch my breath when my fate rewinds. i face my adversaries with indifference; i am bold and confused. i’m loud and insecure and damn, why is […]

rebirth(the RIDE, the THRILL)

September 5, 2020.Reading time 1 minute.

i wonder if my fate was never this—i’ve become too dependent and here i am, sitting here looking foolish. how to rebuild the walls of my pride. too focused on positivity and rebirth, i should have been preparing for the storm and rain. so many times i’ve become involved in other people’s stories–it was the […]

scraps

August 21, 2017.Reading time less than 1 minute.

i use to live off of the scraps he once gave me. i was emaciated. skeletal. i needed more than meager compliments and sparse commitments. i am full now. i am curvy. i am finally healthy. never again will i ever accept scraps when I have a Queen’s appetite❤️❤️💕 @amateur__poet

goodbye

July 19, 2017.Reading time 3 minutes.

<goodbye> it pains me to think this, write this, but i have decided to part with you. leave you behind in my vivid fantasies because as the days stretch long and inviting, nights sleepless with longing, you are devastating me. it’s not your fault, of course. you never knew the consequences of your smile but […]

Reflective ii (trauma)

July 6, 2017.Reading time less than 1 minute.

<Reflective ii> (trauma) Memories so bleak, I seem to have forgotten– {heaven-sent or trauma}–I have seem to forgotten the moment you shattered me beyond repair. You ripped me apart; took a yellow hand and punched into my chest. What hurts more– the impact or the accusations? How grotesque my heart appeared outside of my […]

Reflective i (shattered)

July 6, 2017.Reading time 1 minute.

<Reflective i> (shattered) My eyes red with tears yet to be spent, Yours eyes were solid like mahogany yet hollow with rot. you saw the pain that Ran deep within them yet you turned your cheek. Blood wept from the sores you left inside of me. You promised me forever; forever was a beaten road […]

give and take

June 9, 2017.Reading time 1 minute.

the rock and sway of the boat beneath my feet, i feel like i am stick in place, a trunk to my lovely tree. the earth dances as i remain frozen; she dances as if her feet were on fire. he chases tears down with barley leaves and fermented herbs, he swallows even when […]

Nothing

June 8, 2017.Reading time 1 minute.

It hurts to be looked at like I’m nothing. As if I’m just an object That you can pick up and place In your shopping cart. It hurts To know the things going through Your mind are not safe. When you smirk And scoff, mock and jeer, Do you not understand The fear that grips […]

what-if’s and maybe’s

May 31, 2017.Reading time 2 minutes.

it is as if you nourish yourself on my pain. you must revel in my agony, it must be the truth because there is no possible way you do not see how much you mean to me. it is there, in my eyes. fevered, you once reached over and layed your hand on my forehead […]