goodbye

goodbye

<goodbye> it pains me to think this, write this, but i have decided to part with you. leave you behind in my vivid fantasies because as the days stretch long and inviting, nights sleepless with longing, you are devastating me. it’s not your fault, of course. you never knew the consequences of your smile but [...]

Reflective ii (trauma)

Reflective ii (trauma)

  <Reflective ii> (trauma) Memories so bleak, I seem to have forgotten– {heaven-sent or trauma}–I have seem to forgotten the moment you shattered me beyond repair. You ripped me apart; took a yellow hand and punched into my chest. What hurts more– the impact or the accusations? How grotesque my heart appeared outside of my [...]

give and take

give and take

  the rock and sway of the boat beneath my feet, i feel like i am stick in place, a trunk to my lovely tree. the earth dances as i remain frozen; she dances as if her feet were on fire. he chases tears down with barley leaves and fermented herbs, he swallows even when [...]

Nothing

Nothing

  It hurts to be looked at like I'm nothing. As if I'm just an object That you can pick up and place In your shopping cart. It hurts To know the things going through Your mind are not safe. When you smirk And scoff, mock and jeer, Do you not understand The fear that grips [...]