family has a way of bringing out a side of you, one so entrenched, hooked deep inside, tearing flesh until there is nothing to hide. a gaping wound, hanging off the sides, oozing frothy mistakes and diseases like gang green. i’m falling asleep, head tilting off to the side, air pushing my hair back until [...]
Tag: self-love
Tragedy sings me to sleep
Tragedy sings me to sleeps - 1/7/2020 Tragedy sings me to sleep. not even a door, a wall can smother the violence that brews so close to me. A messenger of peace, I'm met with the herolds of the harbinger of chaos; i’m not prepared for this storm of rage. You call it love when [...]
she was nothing like me.
she was nothing like me. // pages 34-35 she was nothing like me. she was nothing like me–everything that wasn’t me.i’m not sure if i’m sobbing or screaming. |thinner than me. smaller. softer. paler. | she brought out the worst in me. a side of me i rarely see.rarely let breathe. and now, she’s all [...]
where it went wrong
"where it went wrong" - Ascend- page 27-29 where it went wrong i it has become an obsession of mine: going back in time, decipheringthe wreckage, the carnage,to find where it went wrong. ii there must be a clear path...a reason...something so simple that i could go back in timeso you can love me. forgive [...]
resentment(giving too much of myself away)
resentment(giving too much of myself away) sept 4/2020 why is it that i grow resentful at the sound of the clock? i damn the hands of time but can’t catch my breath when my fate rewinds. i face my adversaries with indifference; i am bold and confused. i’m loud and insecure and damn, why is [...]